回归正路

回归正路，不要在路中央犹豫了。

Half of the month left

Finally i still need to move out being alone at small room. Being alone is a terrible problem i have to face on, there must have positive and negative side for being alone, so both side i have also consider it for me better feeling to face this coming change in my life. Anyway, time is passing, life is going, everything in the world is moving, i can't stop at this point, i have to move in line with the change. Think what can i do after changing my accommodation. Nothing will be going smoothly as we expected in my life so i have to adapt me in the changing of my life. Maybe this is a growth in my life, i will be better after i climb through this wall. Actually the life i have been going is not the life i expected, maybe the life i expected is coming soon after i move out from this room. Perhaps this is the time for me learning being discipline and independent and self-enjoying to my life. Still left half of the month.

Released but guilty

Yesterday night i just realized that everyone has his own pressures and problems. On that moment i felt released but guilty to one of my friend. The reason is that i brought my pressure and problem to him causing him double pressures. Actually i had already known this principle for a long periods, but now i can only apply it in my life. The time for me realized this principle is not late , at least i'm understanding it right now.

Nightmare

The night in my past is a wonderful time, everyday i was also anticipating the night coming and hang out with my friends to the place we wanted to go. Althought that was only a simple place called "MAMAK", the time was happy and did not have any pressure of personal matters, just schooling, playing, eating, sleeping and even doing the such of crazy and stupid things in my hometown called " BAHAU". And my life was recycling and recycling to the date end. However, once i stepped on to the "UNIVERSITY LIFE", everythings in my life had changed, pressures have been gradually popping up, the pressure is not coming from studying but my personal thought and views. Now, i have been furthering study in "CYBERJAYA MMU", the pressure is double and even triple to me. I'm anticipating that there has no night in a day, the reason is that i'm scaring being "ALONE". The accomodation i'm staying currently is dark, four walls and without anyperson. Everytimes, i step out from my room door i can only see a set of dinner table and a few of chairs arranged in front of me and four walls as well. Even though i'm scaring this kind of life, i still have to go through it and falling in my nightmare for two more years. That is the life for my following two years. I hope i'm able to wake up from my nightmare after these two years of my university life.

埋怨

我是一个被情绪操控者，只会埋怨自己所没有的，但就不曾珍惜我所拥有的。人就是这样，就太过于专注在自己想要却没有的却忽略了自己所拥有的，不知如何去运用自己所拥有的给自己制造快乐。所有的选择都是自己所选的，选择了就不应该埋怨自己所做出的选择，这只会让自己再度地被情绪给操控。快乐是自己寻找的，是自己轻手创造出来的，没有人能施舍你快乐， 只有我自己才知道怎样可以使到我自己快乐。这个大学的日子是我毕竟要过的路，目前前方只有直路，没有看到什么路牌指示，但我懂再走多两年半就有好多条分叉路，与其去想我在这两年半要怎样过和期待快点走完，倒不如我看看四周的风景，拍些照， 野下餐，去探索下一些我不曾经验过的东西，享受下这漫长的路途生活，也许会带给我不同的快感。目标是重要但在达到目标的过程更加重要。要学会如何爱自己。自己都不洁身自爱，谁会爱我！

角度

在这个世界上有一种科目叫做数学，里面藏着了一个很奥妙的秘密，就是360度。有很多人知道这个秘密的存在，但运用在他们的生活上就把这个秘密就变成隐形了。当你在山上都市的角度看去，是一片美好的风景，一个很梦幻的科技国家，但当你生活在都市里面，一直的角度去看待都市，其实都市没在山顶看那么的美好，甚至是一个很邪恶的地方，充满了罪恶，梦想，妒嫉，仰慕，比较，等等的。不同的角度有不同的观点，所以为什么有些人会跑到山顶去看看他们所制造的都市就是这个原因。每一样东西都有好与坏，看你怎么去看待而已，如果没有了罪恶，梦想，妒嫉，仰慕，比较，就不会有今天的这个梦幻的科技都市的存在，如果没有这个梦幻的科技都市的存在，你就从山顶看不到这个一片美好的风景。还有一种东西叫做是死角，死角是一个你看不到的地方，你只能看到他们表面的东西，在他们的背后却有一些影响力很强的东西在支持着他们。每个比赛都有分前后，也许他们吃了加速药所以比你快踏先一步抵达到终点，快一步有成就，但到最后你也是能抵达到终点的，只要你很清晰你自己的目标。